we keep on doing the same mistakes & i a tired of them! sometimes i feel like i want to get out so bad! we are never a good team and i know that only half of us are actually good. i know im not the best but atleast i try.
other than that, dissecting the heart was interesting :D while mine was barly working. but i know im strong ;D i really want to tell you my whole story but i’ll keep it in my memory since it’ll be forgotten anyways (:
come on! i just want to take one or two perhaps! just buy them! they are cheap for crying out loud!! i neeeed it! i havent dont that since a while & once you see someone doing it you want to do it too. hahaha everyone would be upset if they would see me but i dont care! haha i need it nowwwww!
-one box please (:
-no one to judge
-be alonee or w/ someone but just to talk about crap and joke around xD
yesterday we had the biggest discussion two ppl could have. i dont want to deal with all this because its all nonsense. things like this are just stupid.. grow up a bit & have some commitment ehh? im trying to teach you how to last, and not with other ppl but with me & you wouldnt care. you think that any little thing ruins a relationship but it all has its ups and downs you just have to be patient. well anyways! during lunch he was back into his badass self until after school that he got bored or something. -.- i dont even know but he needs time to himself and if he has to let me go i’ll let go. what a sweet heart (: well im not going to take this so bad because i have to be strong (: plus i have great friends that can help me stay strong :D
honestly this whole month hasnt been the best and thanks to you, i feel like you’ve made it worse but i really dont want that to ruin the next month. if you want to act selfish about everything thats completely fine but just dont roll me up in your situations. i tried & im tired of you just taking it as something else but thats fine. (: as to now (4:30) you havent shown. i dont want to give you all the attention either because its not helping me & you just wouldnt care would you haha. it makes me laugh. i know this wont last but i’ll just stay on my own for now. well i know now is that you can care less & it’ll be done if this continues.
i slept at 3am -.- and i woke up at 10:30 so i am prettttty sleepy :\ i woke up and got ready to celebrate thanksgiving with the family (: we all went to my grandmothers house and there was tons of food and it was all great. i am glad my family got to make it. after we ate i got sleepy so i took a nap and it was 6 when i woke up which was pretty late and i was a bit sleepy. i woke up and we went to go watch the movie barlesque which was better than i thought.
i am thankful for having my family with my and for have a great boyfriend. i am thankful for the food that god gave us and the time & place. i am thankful for having great friends & family that support me & love me. i couldnt be myself with out any of them ♥
Because they write poems, songs, and books in our honor.
Because they never understand us, but they never give up.
Because they can see beauty in women when women have long ceased to see any beauty in themselves.
Because they come from little boys.
Because they can churn out long, intricate, Machiavellian, or incredibly complex mathematics and physics equations, but they can be comparably clueless when it comes to women.
Because they are incredible lovers and never rest until we’re happy.
Because they elevate sports to religion.
Because they’re never afraid of the dark.
Because they don’t care how they look or if they age.
Because they persevere in making and repairing things beyond their abilities, with the naïve self-assurance of the teenage boy who knew everything.
Because they never wear or dream of wearing high heels.
Because they’re always ready for sex.
Because they’re like pomegranates: lots of inedible parts, but the juicy seeds are incredibly tasty and succulent and usually exceed your expectations.
Because they’re afraid to go bald.
Because you always know what they think and they always mean what they say.
Because they love machines, tools, and implements with the same ferocity women love jewelry. Because they go to great lengths to hide, unsuccessfully, that they are frail and human.
Because they either speak too much or not at all to that end.
Because they always finish the food on their plate.
Because they are brave in front of insects and mice.
Because a well-spoken four-year old girl can reduce them to silence, and a beautiful 25-year old can reduce them to slobbering idiots.
Because they want to be either omnivorous or ascetic, warriors or lovers, artists or generals, but nothing in-between.
Because for them there’s no such thing as too much adrenaline. Because when all is said and done, they can’t live without us, no matter how hard they try.
Because they’re truly as simple as they claim to be.
Because they love extremes and when they go to extremes, we’re there to catch them. Because they are tender they when they cry, and how seldom they do it. Because what they lack in talk, they tend to make up for in action.
Because they make excellent companions when driving through rough neighborhoods or walking past dark alleys.
Because they really love their moms, and they remind us of our dads.
Because they never care what their horoscope, their mother-in-law, nor the neighbors say.
Because they don’t lie about their age, their weight, or their clothing size.
Because they have an uncanny ability to look deeply into our eyes and connect with our heart, even when we don’t want them to.
Because when we say “I love you” they ask for an explanation.
-i had a dream i was at a gorgeous river. my dog & phone fell into the water & drained out where i had idea towards where they would head & i couldnt swim as fast as the water would rush them. but i know my phone was useless & my dog would turn out okay.
“I believe that it is easier to hate than love, as only the most courageous can love someone soo deeply; they are able to give the most fragile and breakable part of themselves to someone who is capable of either nurturing or destroying it. Some may say its a foolish thing to do; to let someone in and give them the power to make you vulnerable. But I believe that the feeling of being in love is the closest thing to heaven. Its empowering at the same time its weakness. For the ones that have not loved, they have not lived.”—Farhana Hussain (via dreamdiscoverexplore)
just got out of practice and my hairs dripping wet haha. my legs are all tired and i feel like i cant breath & thats bc im already home. (ive been feeling that way recently -.-) all i want to do is shower, sleep, and perhaps do something around the house or hangout at nanas bc i havent been over since quite a while. i want to hangout with everyone…i miss everyone. and since i haven’t talked to practically ANYONE, i want to make time for this wk at least. & well you, you dont seem too amazed to talk to him so ill just give you some time. i told you think would keep us apart. aint i always right.
what a DAY! i’ve been tired as hell all these past two wks! i haven’t slept at all & things are not going to the right path. i want to sleep. i want to do something different. i don’t want to take exams on every class. i feel stressed. i get headaches. i don’t want to wake up early. i don’t even rest in the weekends at all. and now that we have this “thanksgiving break” i still have to wake up early to run my ass off but i guess thats worth it. it better be worth it ¬¬ que break y que nada. the only break i am having is break from school and from you too :( i don’t have time for my friends. i want to hangout and go out every weekend like we use to. i miss everything. i miss summer when when i had the freedom to do anything i desired. and now im at home watching tv (which i never do because theres nothing good on tv ever) i havent talked to angel since yesterday and yesterday was nothing. i havent texted him when ive texted you. i havent heard his voice when ive called him. i havent even skyped with him when i miss him. hes so far away. farther that he actually is. i want him close to me. i miss him so much. and i love him even more. i cant wait to see him. well for now ill keep on watching tv i guess :(