AS EACH DAY GOES BY, I TRUST LESS & LESS PEOPLE. I DON’T KNOW WHO MY REAL FRIENDS ARE ANYMORE. LIKE MY DAD ALWAYS SAY, “STAY CLOSE TO THOSE FRIENDS WHO HAVE ALWAYS BEEN FOR YOU SINCE THE BEGINNING.” I’VE BEEN LIVING A LIE ALL THIS TIME. NO ONE CAN EVER BE TRUTHFUL TO ONE ANOTHER. I MAY BE OPTIMISTIC BUT ONLY THE PEOPLE AROUND ME GIVE ME A REASON TO BE ONE.
i got home kinda late from my little cousin’s party but im happy that i was laying down most of the time watching movies with jacob (: he’s such a cutie “are you two twins?” but i didn’t get to go to ccd and church and it was the last day of ccd :( but i can barely feel like sitting down with all the medications :/
It seems that everytime I let my walls down - I feel powerless and vulnerable. It’s harder for me to say no and to take control. Being in a relationship should make you feel like you’re on top of the world, not carrying it. The next time I get into a relationship, it’s going to be one where I don’t get pushed around and where I have a say. If someone really cares about me - they should earn respect correctly - not through fear.